I’ve been waiting to be able to share this news on the latest development in my life, and I’m so excited that I’m now able to!
FX is a Family Experience created to help connect kids and their parents with God’s Big Ideas together. Between our Live Experience once a month and our weekly Home Experience Tools, our passion is to provide the environments we all need to discover the Word of God as a family, together.
There are incredible teams of singers, musicians, actors, dancers, leaders, techs and more who work tirelessly throughout each month to make the FX Live Family Experience happen 5 times on 4 Cross Point campuses all in one morning once a month. That’s like, amazing! I can’t wait to start digging in, dreaming and creating with these folks. My first day on the job is this Sunday, September 12, which is also this month’s FX Live day! It’s going to be a great day!
I’m excited about this for many reasons. I’m excited to serve the families of Cross Point and be a conduit for God’s heart for strengthening and building the family. In my role as FX Director, I’ll be plugging in across the board, working closely with the Family Ministries leadership team and the FX teams at all 4 Cross Point campuses on production, content, leadership, programming, organizational, media, creative and other levels. So on one hand, it also feels amazing to once again have the opportunity to dive into something that engages so many different areas of my passions, experience and skill sets, many of which I thought I may have had to pack away and never tap into again. I also love that I’m going to get to do this and still co-lead and invest into the amazing STRETCH community group that is such a big part of my life and significant part of my story (more on that soon).
But perhaps the main reason I’m so excited and humbled by this opportunity may have less to do with the actual job than with what it actually represents for me, and that is not just resolution, but redemption. If you’ve been reading my blog for long, you’re probably familiar with my story. This has been a year of gutting and rebuilding unlike anything I’ve ever experienced and there were a lot of painful times that I didn’t understand. To be honest, I still don’t understand it all, but I’ll tell you what I do know: I am not the same person I was a year ago.
The more I have resigned my right to control, abandoned my entitled pursuit of the answers and chosen to surrender to the story God was writing with my life, my heart has changed.
I am grateful for every single broken moment over these past several months when I have felt like a failure… every single frustrated moment that I struggled to make sense of… every single breathless, uncertain moment when I had run out of words to say.
Those moments taught me what was in my heart.
Those moments taught me how to pry my fingers from around what I thought I deserved.
Those moments taught me how to live open handed.
Those moments taught me the value of living with the questions.
Those moments taught me that God was engaged in a passionate pursuit of my heart.
In every single one of those moments, I had a choice: to believe that my current situation was my destination or to believe that the real value of each moment was more about who I was becoming than where I was going. It wasn’t ever without a struggle, but the more I chose the latter, the more my heart was able to exhale, release its grip on what I thought I had to have and who I thought I had to be, and the more perspective I had on what I was walking through.
God has used Cross Point and the community I’ve found there to heal my heart in so many ways. In the relatively short time I’ve been at Cross Point I’ve had the opportunity to plug in and engage in what God is doing there on several levels and it has changed my life. Those of you who have walked closely with me over the last several months may understand this better than others, but after many months of waiting, hoping and wondering what was next, for THIS to be what was waiting for me, and to have the opportunity to invest with the Cross Point team in this way, is an incredibly redemptive chapter in my ever-evolving story in more ways than I can explain right now.
I have much more to write and share about all this, but for now I just want to say…
God is faithful…
and Let’s do this!