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So Why “An Idol Heart?”

It has been close to a year since I have blogged with any kind of consistency.  Since then, a lot has happened.

About a year ago, I experienced what writers and storytellers call an “inciting event.”  According to Suite 101, an inciting event is:

…the moment or plot point in a script that kicks the story into motion. It occurs after the set up or exposition and everything that follows the inciting incident should be a result of the inciting incident. It is where a story really begins.
It is that moment in the script where the protagonist’s world is turned upside down and he/she must then set about resolving the change in circumstances that the incident has brought about. It is generally a clear and defined moment that is easily identifiable.
Of “inciting events”, author Donald Miller says:
Characters don’t change without being forced to change. An inciting incident is the event in a movie that causes upheaval in the protagonist life. The protagonist, then, naturally seeks to return to stability. And in order to do that, he HAS to solve his new problem.
While we may tend to prefer comfortable, warm and fuzzy feel-good stories, those kind of stories can tend to be long on emotion but short on depth.  Ever the master story-teller, God specializes in character development.  It was in that spirit that God used this particular inciting event in my life to peel back the layers of my heart and show me what was really there.  It was not great and consequently, I was broken.

It was during this time that I was introduced to the ministry of Timothy Keller, pastor of Redeemer Presbyterian Church in New York City, and particularly his teachings on idolatry in our hearts and culture.  Between his messages on idolatry, followed by the October ’09 release of his book “Counterfeit Gods”, which digs much deeper into the heart of idolatry, God pretty much wrecked my life and my heart.  The past few months in particular have brought with them a systematic deconstructing of so much stuff that I had given inordinate place in my heart to.

So, why “An Idol Heart?”  In “Counterfeit Gods”, Tim Keller says,

“The human heart is indeed a factory that mass-produces idols.”

Wow. That’s why.  Every single day I am learning to be more and more aware and in tune with what my heart is prone to, choosing to lay those things at the cross and looking to Christ as my ultimate source of worth, acceptance and identity.

This has been, and continues to be, a massive heart and life shift for me which is actively reshaping just about everything I’ve known or understood about my heart, sin, salvation and grace.  In fact, this is reshaping how I see and process, well, just about everything.
“I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart.” – Ezekiel 36:26

This is the single most painful yet beautiful experience I’ve ever walked through.  I have changed… a lot.  I have let go… of a lot.  I’ve been learning a lot and I’ve been unlearning a lot.  I’ve been experiencing what it means to let go and also what it means to pursue.  I am still very much in the middle of this journey, but I’ve finally come to a place where I’m ready to talk about it to more than just my core group of close friends who have been walking through this with me.

An Idol Heart.

This is me.

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So Why “An Idol Heart?”
28 comments
Blake Bergstrom
Blake Bergstrom

i'm loving the look of this blog. it looks fantastic.

Blake

Janna Pastin
Janna Pastin

It was so good to see you in print. Love your persective and can't wait to read more...See you in Panera!

Matthew Peterson
Matthew Peterson

The church pew is a the most dangerous and lovely place to be. Thanks for sharing your heart Grant. I'm looking forward to hearing from you here.
~Matt

K-boogie01
K-boogie01

Wow Grant! You just summed up what I am going through so very eloquently! "This is the single most painful yet beautiful experience I’ve ever walked through. I have changed… a lot. I have let go… of a lot".... I so dig ur perspective!

Monica Watkins
Monica Watkins

I always enjoyed your blogs, Grant, so it's good to see you posting again. I can completely relate to this lesson. I've received similar revelation recently. It makes me so amazingly thankful to serve a God who cares enough to expose our hearts to us. Looking forward to the hearing more of your story.

JuliaKate
JuliaKate

Glad to see your blogging again. A fresh perspective and an honest blog are always good for the soul.

Tyson
Tyson

can't wait to read more, my friend. Can't wait.

Betsega
Betsega

really really excited for you... it's always been there... now it's just next level!

jessica rodriguez
jessica rodriguez

Thank you for sharing, this really blessed, ministered and challenged me this morning..can't wait to read more! All the way from NYC (Christ Tab)- Jessica

Daniel C White
Daniel C White

Bro, can't tell you how excited I am to start reading about this new season of life you're in. From the conversations we've had to your recent post I just read, I'm truly inspired.

pete wilson
pete wilson

Love the blog Grant. Can't wait to see what God does in and through you in the future.

JasonWert
JasonWert

Congrats on this big step. I'm looking forward to watching & reading where you go.

Kyle Reed
Kyle Reed

Thanks for sharing, looking forward to more. Adding it to my RSS reader

JOHN B.
JOHN B.

LOVE IT AND LOVE YOU BRO!!!

Grant Jenkins
Grant Jenkins

Thank you so much, Blake. I really appreciate the love. Glad you stopped by! See you Sunday!

Grant
Grant

Thanks Janna! Really appreciate it. Panera or bust! :)

Grant
Grant

thanks so much, homey! So glad you stopped by. I'm looking forward to you looking forward to hearing from me here. :)

Grant
Grant

Muchas gracias! Thanks for the love. :)

Grant
Grant

"It makes me so amazingly thankful to serve a God who cares enough to expose our hearts to us." Yes! love that. Thanks so much Monica! So glad you're here! :)

Grant
Grant

Thanks so much! I really appreciate that. :)

Grant
Grant

I KNOW YOU can't! Since you pretty much know all about all of this, it will be cool to see how the conversation shapes around me trying to write and recount so many of the stories and experiences from the past year and more. So glad you're along for the ride, my friend.

Grant
Grant

thanks Bets!! Indeed it has, and apparently now it is. *This is me buckling up...* :)

Grant
Grant

Awwwww yeah, my NYC Christ Tab peeps in tha howse! Thanks so much Jessica. That's awesome that this ministered to and challenged you today. Praise God. He's faithful.

Grant
Grant

thanks so much homey. You're one of the few who's been in the mix for quite awhile now and has seen much of this play out first hand. Thanks for being such a great friend and for the blog love. :)

Grant
Grant

Thanks so much, Pete! So glad you dig it. This is shaping up to be quite a journey. :)

Grant
Grant

I appreciate that, Jason. Yeah, it was a big first step. After I knew I wanted to start blogging again and knew I really wanted to start talking about what's going on in my life, the next big question was "where do I start???" Hope I communicated it well.

Grant
Grant

Thanks Kyle. And thanks for subscribing. Looking forward to connecting with you some more!

Grant
Grant

thanks homey! Really appreciate that. Now back to my granola... :)

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