Yesterday I celebrated another birthday. Over the past few weeks I’ve found myself taking a few steps back from the moments at hand and evaluating the broad scale of the story of my life. What a truly incredible journey I am on! I’ve noticed a common thread in many of the conversations I’ve had with friends over the last few weeks have been the ideas of change, fear and disappointment, but also hope, courage and bravery… and this idea that each of us is constantly standing on the edge of what COULD BE, wrestling with a uniquely tailored collision of any of those ideas at any given time. These conversations have encouraged me, challenged me and shaped me. So, in the spirit of these ongoing dialogues, and on the occasion of stepping into the next year of my life, I decided it was time for another tattoo. One that is equally a reflection of where I’ve been, a snapshot of this moment and hopeful gaze into what is yet to come.
It is Hebrew for “courage”, and a constant reminder to never be afraid to take brave steps, knowing I do not take them alone.
Pronounced “ah-mets”, it is based on the context of “courage” found in Joshua 1:9:
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”
It is on my left foot because I am right-handed, so my left is my weaker side. It’s easy to be courageous when you are confident in your own strength, ability or you know the next step. It’s much harder to have courage in the midst of your weakness, inability or uncertainty, but that’s when it matters most because the strength you go in is not your own.
It was inspired by the ever-evolving shape of my story, this incredible adventure I continue to find myself on and the people in my life whose courageous journeys pour fuel on the fire of my own.
But more than just my body, I want my life and story to be marked with courage. Not a courage that is my own; but a confidence and bravery that comes from the depths of knowing God is with me in every step, where ever I go.