12 Years And Some Change

There are lots of dates on the calendar that cause me to wax nostalgic. It’s not uncommon for me to recall, usually with great detail, significant moments that happened on a certain date, “X” number of years ago. Because of this, my friend Wes sometimes calls me “Rainman”. Fair enough. I prefer to think of myself as the Human Time-Hop.

It’s one of those days. Today is May 21, and I first moved to Nashville 12 years ago today. In the years since then, I’ve had some very high highs, some very low lows and much in-between. Today I’ve been reflecting on the extremes, ebbs and flows of my journey, and what a journey it has been.

  • I’ve traveled around the world and I’ve been depressed and unable to get out of bed.
  • I’ve stayed on the club level of luxury hotels in foreign countries and I’ve been unable to pay my rent.
  • I’ve been chauffered in limos and I almost lost my car to repossession.
  • I’ve hobnobbed with A-list celebrities and I’ve served meals to the homeless.
  • I’ve made the most money of my working years and the least money of my working years.
  • I’ve been the one to call and I’ve been the one who couldn’t get a call back.
  • I’ve bought expensive clothes and I’ve had a friend buy me a shirt and khakis for a job interview.
  • I’ve dined in the homes of international dignitaries and I’ve walked in mud and feces in small African villages.
  • I’ve had the VIP treatment and I’ve cleaned the bathroom at Starbucks.
  • I’ve had a dream that turned into a nightmare that turned into redemption.
  • I’ve rolled with the punches and I’ve been down for the count.
  • I’ve swam in the ocean on the opposite side of the world and I’ve felt trapped in my own house.
  • I’ve left jobs and I have lost jobs.
  • I’ve made some huge leaps of faith and I’ve been paralyzed by fear.
  • I’ve developed strategies and I haven’t had a clue.
  • I’ve held on to a lot and I’ve let a lot go.
  • I’ve been entitled and I’ve been humbled.
  • I’ve screamed “no” and I’ve said “yes”.
  • I’ve been honored and I’ve been disrespected.
  • I’ve treated friends to dinners and gifts and I’ve had to have someone buy my groceries.
  • I learned how easy I can buy into the lie that what I do is more important than who I am.
  • I learned that it’s foolish to mistake a full passport for a full heart.
  • I learned that being known deeply by a few is worth far more than being known about by many.
  • I learned that it’s ok to disappear behind the apron of service.
  • I’ve been at the top of my game and the end of my rope.
  • I’ve had friends come through and friends fall through.
  • I’ve laughed a lot and cried a lot.
  • I thought I knew Jesus and then I found Jesus.
  • I’ve fallen apart and I’ve been put back together.

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength. [Philippians 4:12-13]

What a journey indeed. It looks nothing like what I could have ever imagined 12 years ago today, but oh, what I thought I wanted and what I got instead.

Today, I’m thankful.


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Grant Jenkins12 Years And Some Change

That line "what I thought I wanted..." Is in a Sara groves song. Look it up. Great song. Great post bro.

anidolheart moderator

@andytraub  Thanks, Andy. I appreciate it. Yeah, I'm very familiar with the song. That's where I got that line. She's one of my favorites.